One of many

When I'm alone I hear it
A voice telling me
That I should just give up if it hurts
Seeming like a deep black hole
A charming but frightening voice.

Mimicking the way I use to speak
I try to say that nothing is wrong
It doesn't matter if that is a lie
All I want is the strength to keep moving forward.

If everything must face the end of life
Why are people sad and lament that?
I know that the day I perish will come
So it makes the peaceful days even more beautiful.

The future I have is only one
One of many
I don't want eternity at the least
Because each second, each moment, is special
Because I live in the same world as you

As if keeping me in check
I see the same dream over and over again.
A dream so beautiful that it becomes ironic...
Please wake me up! I don't want to stay in it...

I want to stay until the day we say goodbye
And even if it comes today or tomorrow
I won't have any regrets.

You gave me color
And with my eyes
I will remember the work that we lived in together.

I'll never manage to be perfect
And I won't offer my prayers to anyone.
No matter what people say
I know what's important to me.

I never asked for anything more than this
Because the future I desire is here.
You, who gave birth to this loneliness,
Gave value to mere solitude.

The future I have is only one
One of many
I don't want eternity at the least
Because each second, each moment, is special
Because I live in the same world as you

Paradise Lost

Now let me open the scar

While this virus mixes in
I insert black into the rainbow

A noise is hidden
Wet in the nectar of flowers red as blood
Creeping up to my heart
"You want it all to end, don't you?"

A paradigm sleeping for eternity
It is eroding me, eating my core

I keep opening the scar
This virus melting what it touches
My instincts exposed
I fell the loneliness growing up in this broken reality
Where even paradise is painted in black

I just want to sneak away right now
From this labyrinth of sanity
And go to an inverted contrast

My form reflected in the blue glass
Sends a cruel smile that makes my throat shake

I'm changing into a monster
This mutual betrayal of expectations too is a deeply falling process
Is this my insanity?
Even that question is proof of how blind I am.
The world I knew
Feels like a paradise lost

Now let me open this scar
And see this virus invading more and more
Making the loneliness grow
A discovered reality - even if I experience defilement
I can never go back - the paradise has been bleached

Yes, this is my sense of sanity,
Where the rainbow is totally corrupted and black

I'll sneak away right now from this labyrinth of sanity
To an inverted contrast
The world I knew
Feels like a paradise lost
I reach my hand out to a vortex of taboo
So that I can see the colors of that rainbow once again

A curse

Break my curse
And stop this darkness that is still spreading! 

I'm afraid of an unseen tomorrow
Where I'm no longer able to move but
I'll get up 
And release myself towards the sky... 

Fate has come to test us
And we bear a fang against the darkness of despair
Inside of the storm
I want to break through, even if I end up injured... 
And take off to the world that's within our grasp

Until that moment it won't end
Wake up 
To the future where it all ends... 

Something that tries to devour us and take us is inside
Even still, don't want to lose the hope I have
At the end of all sorrow
My trembling heart is still seeking... 

Unlock the world you wish for
Because it's our fists that we hold up,
With our wishes overfilled

There's nothing to waver about
Within the wind that starts to rise
We make sure of our future ! 

This burning-up challenge
It makes me feel moved
Once again, your smile
I'll make sure to retrieve it... 

Reason to be

Struggling, compensating
I'm searching for a reason to live
Because that bright light doesn't lie in yesterday.

I'm like a stray dog, running without a destination.

In order to fill that blank space,
I've been searching for just one line, one sentence.
I ask for way too much from myself, but that will never get me anything,
Why does everything always end up making me fall apart?

I'll reach the sky with this tainted hand.

Desire, resistance
I'm searching for my reason to live
Because the answer doesn't lie in yesterday..
On this page, once my wandering comes to an end,
My reason to live will be composed!

Floating between the lines,
The definition of lies and truth are meaningless, they are nonsense.
I've been running and averting my eyes from an instinct I can't tame...
In the end, nothing saves me from it!

Looking up
Twisting away at it
I'm trying to grab a reason to be.

I'll surely go on to wander a desert of words and desires.
All of us standing in opposition are the outcome of our wandering selves:
A paradox that becomes even more entwined.

I've decided to never ask for too much
Because the reason I can't tame myself
Is because I don't believe in me.

I learned of pain
I realized that was the beggining of my salvation
So take my hand.

Struggling, compensating
We'll keep searching for a reason to be.
We are the only ones who can write this new page.

We are stray dogs, running towards tomorrow.

My war

The sun above this battlefield sways on high
Casting away the shadows settled upon my emotions
As if it was aware they'll someday turn into pain.

Even the dreams born of sadness
Will be forgiven by the world, and by you,
As my feelings run free.

I'll keep living powerfully with all the things from that day - all that exists now, deep within me.

As the past revives,
In this very place,
I have a wish from which I'll never back down.
I'll etch it powerfully with my one and only voice
This is my own war.

Feelings of love intersect, growing dimmer.
I have no need for sympathy - Isn't it pathetic?
From failed outcomes,
I create a new version of myself

That song of hope you sang
Melted away the thorns barring this path,
So that we could see a smiling future.

Screaming out, what resounds is my heartbeat
An impulse I seek to share
And I just realize
That this wish will shine forever.

I'll walk strongly down this road to be reborn!

Holding that warmth,
And promises to be protected,
I'll bare an irreplaceable hope for that wish.
Never forgetting, I'll paint this path powerfully
For this is my own war.

Ringing out,
that impulse took certain form within my hands.
Overcoming my tears,
My will and wishes will shine forever!

I'll go forth powerfully
Breaking the answer fate has given for the sake of my dreams.

As the past revives,
in this very place,
I have a wish from which I'll never back down.

I'll etch powerfully with my one and only voice
This is my war!